Louise stood looking out of the
window with unseeing eyes. There was troubled expression upon
her face. There were tears in her eyes, and a lump in her
throat. What was the trouble? An hour before she had been
singing as blithely as a songbird. Her morning devotion had
been sweet. The presence of God had been with her. The day had
started out full of sunshine, but alas! Now her sky was
clouded.
It had all happened in a
moment. Her younger brother had been playing with his dog and
had carelessly run against the stand upon which her
flower-pots were sitting and had upset one of the choice
plants, breaking the pot and ruining the flower. Louise saw
the happening. How careless it was of the boy! Quickly a
feeling of impatience arose, and before she realized what she
was doing, she had spoken sharply to her brother and had said
hasty words that she immediately regretted. Her conscience
quickly reproved her. She felt bad over the loss of the
flower, but she felt much worse over her hasty words. A dark,
heavy cloud settled upon her. The sunshine was all gone, there
was no longer any song in her heart, but heaviness instead.
Standing there by the
window she now meditated over it. Oh, if she had been more
tender! If she had only exercised more self-control! If she
had kept back those hasty words! It was quite true that Tom
had been very careless. Still, she knew that he too loved the
flowers. He did not mean to destroy one. Louise loved Tom, and
because of this she felt all the more deeply what she had
done. He was gone now, she knew not where. She would be glad
to apologize to him and beg his pardon if he were there. She
decided that she would tell him as soon as he returned, and
that gave her some satisfaction, but did not take away the
cloud. She thought of how bright the morning and how light and
care free her heart had been! But now her day was clouded, and
worst of all, she had made the cloud herself, by her own
haste.
That is often the way it
is with us. We make so many of our own clouds in life. Clouds
often come over our lives from the actions of others;
sometimes they come through circumstances that can not be
helped; sometimes they come from Satan himself. Such clouds as
these do not have the effect upon us that our home-made clouds
do. The things that are hardest to bear are the things that we
feel we have brought upon ourselves. These get closer to us
than anything else. They have a sting to them that nothing
else has. Many times people do things that try us; but if we
also do or say something hastily at that time, it will
increase our trial and make it more difficult to bear. It will
make the clouds that come all the darker. If we have not been
as kind as we ought to have been, if there has been a
sharpness in our words, or if we have manifested our
displeasure at something in a way that showed our feelings to
much, it is sure to bring a cloud over our day.
The more tender our
conscience, the more we shall feel these things and the more
tendency will be to cloud our days. It is true that we shall
feel displeased over things, and it is very natural to
manifest our displeasure in some way. Some people are very
impulsive and speak before they stop to think what they are
saying or what result will be, and thus they are continually
making clouds for themselves. There are times when we must
resolutely take hold of ourselves when the feeling of
displeasure comes, as it sure to do. The will must grapple
with these emotions quickly and not let them get into action.
Our wills were given us to rule ourselves with. When tempted
to be unkind or to be hasty in our words and actions, we
should say within ourselves: " I will not speak hasty words. I
will control myself and keep sweet. I will be patient; I will
be kind. I will do as the Lord would have me to do." Then we
should put these resolutions quickly into actions. Instead of
the trial bringing a cloud over us, the fact that we have
conquered ourselves and kept ourselves in the attitude that we
should hold toward God and toward others will make the
sunshine all the brighter.
Conquer yourself: set a
watch before your lips. If you are of an impulsive
disposition, you may fail again and again, but do not be
discouraged, keep up the fight. You will win in the end. You
will reach at last the place where self-control acts
automatically, where you will think in time. If you fail and
the clouds come, endure them patiently, resolving to do better
the next time. Do not let yourself be crushed under
circumstance. Do not let yourself be so discouraged that you
think that there is no use in trying, that you never will
overcome. Keep up the fight: you will yet come out conqueror.
Sometimes people feel that
God is leading them to do a certain thing; they feel strongly
impressed to do it. They see an opportunity; then perhaps
through timidity or indecision, they let the opportunity pass
by, and when it is gone they feel bad because they failed to
improve it. How they regret not having done it! If they had
another opportunity, they would not let it slip. But it has
gone. In vain do they wish for it again. They have failed, and
that failure brings a dark cloud over them. It is another
home-made clouds. They can not blame any one else for it-not
even Satan. But they do blame themselves, and sometimes to
such an extent that it takes the joy and sweetness out of the
day, and possibly out of several days. If we have done such
things, it does no good to heap reproaches upon ourselves.
That only makes our clouds darker. The way out is to open our
hearts to God and tell him all about it, asking him to help us
to be more courageous, more diligent to take advantage of our
opportunities, and more faithful to follow his leadings. Let
us resolve in our hearts that we will do this, then go
cheerfully about it.
Frivolous or foolish
conversation or actions sometimes brings clouds over our sky.
The spirit reproves us and we see our faults. To chide and
condemn ourselves does no good. The only profitable thing for
us to do at such times is to be open-hearted and frank toward
the Lord and tell him about it, to ask his help that we may do
better the next time, and to determine I our hearts that we
will do better. I do not mean that we should get into bondage.
God wants us to be free, to live naturally, and not to live
under a strain, but to exercise a proper degree of caution.
I suppose we all have
regrets and come more or less short of our ideals at times.
But if we are as careful and as true as we ought to be, we
shall not have so many of these home-made clouds; but if we do
have them, let us bear patiently. It will do no good to
chastise ourselves. The only thing we can do that will be
profitable is to trust in the Lord, and go ahead until the
darkness passes away and the sun shines again. Let us be true
to God and hold fast our confidence and our decision to serve
him and be ready to confess our faults before him. He will
treat our faults as faults, not as sins. He will not cut us of
for such things. He will have mercy upon us and will show his
loving kindness toward us. Let us therefore trust in him and
make as few of those home-made cloud.