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You
may feel that nobody really understands how you
feel and that very well may be true, however I
tell you on the Authority of the Word of God that
Jesus does understand! When it comes right down to
it, Jesus is the only one who can really see into
the depths of our heart and know exactly what is
going on inside. He Loves you and He cares about
your every breath.
I am speaking from
experience! I have suffered physical, sexual and
emotional abuse in my life and I can tell you that
the emotional abuse is the worse. The scars from
the physical abuse eventually fade away so that
you don't really think about it that much, but the
emotional scars never go away!
We are to
forgive people. God said that if we don't forgive
others, He will not forgive us but He understands
that it will still hurt. I had to give all the
bitterness, hurt, confusion, suicidal thoughts
which I had every day for sixteen years, and the
loneliness to Jesus.
It did not happen
over night but when I really opened my heart to
Jesus and made a heart commitment, not just a head
and verbal commitment, all of my past started to
fade away. It took years to do that and He is
still in the process of working on me by
reassuring me, sometimes every minute of the day,
how much He Loves me and cares when it seems
nobody else does.
God used a beloved
Pastor who has been a dear friend of mine for many
years to show me how to open the door to my heart
emotionally. Pastor Byron said this statement in a
sermon once and when he said it I honestly thought
the man was crazy. He said, "If you want to fly
higher than a kite, start bragging on Jesus". I
started doing that. I began to tell everyone I
came in contact with how great Jesus is and how
much He Loves you and desires to heal your pain.
I remember once several years ago at a bus
stop while waiting for the bus, there was a man
sitting there waiting with me. I was still
extremely afraid of people but I finally started
talking to him. I said, "Sir, do you know how much
Jesus Loves you"?
He just looked at me and
didn't say anything. It scared me so I didn't say
anything else. Five minutes later, he began to
weep and said, "Do you really think it is possible
for Him to love me since I have done so many
terrible things in my life"? I told him that if
Jesus could love me as many crazy and mixed up and
sinful things that I had done, He can love
anybody.
The bus was late and we talked
for twenty minutes and I had the privilege and
honor of leading him to accept Jesus into his
heart. I have never seen or heard from that man
again but I know that Jesus has him in the Palm of
His Hand, and that is all that we can do for
anyone. Give that person to Jesus and then get out
of His way and stop telling Him how to fix the
situation.
ŠJoanne Lowe January 22,
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